True Honesty

So, Lindsey tagged me, and last time she did I failed to comply. But since it's Sunday and I'm at work looking to be entertained, I give in.

10 Truths about Jessa (that you may or may not already know).

1. Honesty is not my best quality. I have a tendency to lie to myself, and therefore to others. I was allowed to get away with it so much during my childhood that I sometimes find myself lying by default. It's a problem of which I am aware and on which I am working to improve.

2. I won't hold a grudge. It's a pointless waste of energy, I think, to stay angry at someone for something that happened however long ago. The only exception to this rule so far to date is that of my ex-husband, whom I begrudge a little less each day that he does not try to contact me. So it stands to reason that soon enough he will no longer be the exception, granted he doesn't pull any of his usual crap and cause the cycle to begin again...

3. Music is a necessity. I rarely do anything that does not involve music in some way, aside from sleeping, but I have eclectic tastes. My all time favorite is Incubus, but I also listen to Kanye and Snoop Dogg, Portishead, Gym Class Heroes, La Roux and Lady Gaga. I'm constantly looking for new sounds and artists. Music is one of the exceptions to the Everything in Moderation rule.

4. My favorite colors are red, black and white. I know it's lame, but I love the combination, okay? I've been trying to resist decorating my entire house in the theme, but so far I have mostly failed. My couch is white and the book shelf and TV stand and the TV itself are all black...

5. I have commitment issues. That's probably not surprising, considering. I guess it's more true to say that I have commitment issues when it comes to relationships with the opposite sex, because commitment in general doesn't scare me too much. I did purchase a house, after all, and I'm 100% committed to myself and my family, so really it's only the idea of committing to a relationship that scares me.

6. I believe in facing my fears. I've recently begun watching scary movies (which, believe me, is a challenge for one as sensitive and squeamish as me), the goal being to overcome my fear of such things. Similarly, I've also faced up to my fear of commitment, and now I find myself in a relationship. It's only been two months or so, and I still catch myself fretting over all the what-ifs. But, as the old priest says in Keeping the Faith, you can't truly make a commitment without realizing that it is a decision you keep making, over and over again. So I'm keeping that in mind and trying my damnedest to keep all my crazy contained ;-) Luckily for me, I've found a man that makes it easy to not be crazy.

7. I don't get ruffled. I tend to let things go without making a big deal. I don't like confrontation, so I do what I can to avoid it. That does not, however, mean that I'm a pushover. If it comes right down to it, I will most certainly express my opinion or make my annoyance/anger/etc. known.

8. I really struggle with being passive-aggressive. Left to my own devices, I'll be passive-aggressive if and when I think I can get away with it. Being married to another passive-aggressive person for four years only served to make my habit all that much worse. However, I am aware of the issue (obviously) and am working to break it. As a result, I'm discovering just how hard it is to break a habit that is 24 years in the making.

9. I am easily entertained, and I'm NOT sorry about it. What's so wrong with wanting to laugh instead of scream at a movie? Or being excited about little things like bubble paper? Don't judge me ;-)

10. I am an insufferable knowitall. I just can't help it, okay? I grew up with a father that always has an answer (usually true) to any random question that was thrown at him. I must have picked it up from him, because I'll answer any question if I know the answer and even if it isn't directed at me. Again, knowledge is power, and my awareness of the issue helps immensely.

So anyhow. I hope we all learned something today. It's not as hard to be honest as I originally thought. I'm going to tag April, Mrs.T, Faye-alicious and Sarah. Ready............GO!